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Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Don't be the cause of any sinner losing hope in the Vast Mercy of Allah


Adab: Imam Haddad’s Al Wasiya
Manners: Imam Haddad’s Poem
Al Wasiya

The testimony of faith;

لا اله الا الله

La ilaha illa Allah.

This testimony should become alive absorbed ones heart and be manifested in our actions,
When we have hope, it should lie only with Allah
because He is the only one who can fulfil our hopes.

If you have this rajaa (hope) associated and attached to Allah
you'll find that Allah will fulfil all your needs that you are seeking from Him.
When asking Habib Umar,
what do we do to not lose the bounties Allah bestows upon us,
like spiritual favours?
how do we protect that?
He replied with:
kad kafani ilm rabb
-an excerpt from the poem of Imam Al-Haddad,
"sufficient for me is knowledge of my Lord".

Remain always at the door of Allah
constantly,
hoping Allah will bestow His Mercy upon you
Simply because
you are standing at His Door.

Imam Haddad said I learnt how to stand at the door of Allah through observing a child!
He was walking in the streets one day when he saw that a mother had spanked her child and kicked him out of the house,
He said I saw this little boy turn around and stand at her door step
crying and begging
his mother to open the door for him,
Nothing could console him.
His entire attention was directed to his mother in the house,
and he cried to her
oblivious to everything else around him
He cried and cried and cried at her door
until she relented
and opened the door for him.

We need to focus our attention on Allah
and we need to seek
none other than Him
we need to ask
none other than Him
and we should stand
at no other Door
than His

Stand how a beggar would stand.

Beggars are relentless
you push them aside,
ignore them,
tell them to go away
Run away from them
anything
but they're not hearing you,
They're not letting go
theyre sticking by you
relentlessly
Until you give in and give them what they want
and reward their persistence,

And if you knock and persist
at the door of the One who is Most Generous,
He will open for you.

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بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

"In the name of Allah the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful"

Never despair in the Mercy of Allah

Allah wants us to know Him through this quality of Mercy,
through His two attributes-
Al Rahman,
Al Rahim,
this is what we recite in the beginning of every chapter in the Quran
and when you begin any task,
We begin in the Name of Allah,
the Most Gracious,
the Most Merciful
We begin with the remembrance of Allah,

Of the 99 names He wants you to know Him
through these two,
Al-Rahman
Al-Rahim,
We are incessantly reminded of those two names
Over and over again
In the Name of Allah
Al-Rahman,
Al-Rahim
Over and over again
In the Name of Allah
Al-Rahman,
Al-Rahim.

Imam hadad says concerning these two names,
turjal illah alathi turja marahimahu-
marahimahu
translates as "His Mercies"
it’s pluralised,
drawing attention to fact that within the Mercy of Allah
lies hidden innumerable Mercies.

It has been related in prophetic tradition,
that the Messenger of Allah,
may the peace and blessings of Allah be upon him
said:
Allah created 100 parts to His Mercy,
but that's not the limit of it,
its more expansive than that
As we'll see...

One of those parts is that which Allah descended upon the earth,
with which people show mercy towards one another,
and from this one part the entire universe draws mercy towards one another
and this has been so from beginning of creation and continues until the end of creation
It is from that one Mercy you find that an animal would lift its hoof from the ground out of fear of possibly injuring its baby.
The rest
The 99
are reserved for the Day of Rising
So The Most-Merciful
can bestow it upon His servants.
 
The two titles,
Al-Rahman and Al-Rahim,
Come from the root words
Rahma and Rahima,

However the mercy associated to Al-Rahman
is very different
to the mercy associated to the name of Al-Rahim,

Rahman is that type of mercy that only Allah has
and only Allah can express,
However Rahim
that is a type of mercy that people too, can express.

You can say about a man that he is
Rahim bi ahlih- Merciful towards his family or
Rahim bi 'ibadih- Merciful towards his servants

The name of Allah, Al-Rahman is a wider,
all encompassing form of Mercy
the type Allah refers to when he says
"waRahmati wasi3at- kul shay2"
"And My Mercy overwhelms/encompasses all things"
So that we find that the mercy of Allah is pouring
upon a disbeliever,
upon an athiest,
upon a tyrant, etc.
This is unlimited
unconditional
Mercy.
It overwhelms all his creation regardless of who or what they are,
It is impossible for humans to be able to express this sort of mercy,
We are incapable of showing mercy towards a tyrant for instance or towards unjust people.

(for a more extensive read on the difference refer to the post of September 2011) 

On the Day of Rising shaytan will see these remaining 99 abundant Mercies
And although he is doomed,
just through merely seeing these abundant Mercies of Allah,
he thinks perhaps I too can have a share in this!
- he does not lose hope in the Mercy of Allah
But he won't have it because he's outcast and doomed to eternity
And there is nothing he can do to return back
As for everyone else,
its fair game.

If Allah says,
“wa Rahmati wasi3at kul shay2”,
“And My Mercy overwhelms/encompasses all things”
He's talking about His attribute of: Al-Rahman,
However when he specifies where His Mercy is going
for instance:
I've decreed My Mercy for the mutaqeen- those with taqwa (reverant fear),
Or the muhsineen (Muslims who strive with excellence)
then that kind of Mercy is associated to His attribute of : Al-Rahim,
thats the difference between the two

If we understand this attribute of Allah, and we connect to these names,
We should be people who guide others and connect them to Allah through this essential quality.
Don't be a person, who makes another despair of the abundant Mercy of Allah,
Woe upon a person who makes one despair in the abundant Mercy of Allah!
and woe upon them again and again and again!

The Messenger of Allah- May Allah send peace and blessings upon him,
heard two men arguing,
he said he heard one man say
"How will it be that Allah will forgive you?!"
To which Allah's Messenger said:
"manth allathi yata2a 'ala Allah?"
"Who dares to put themselves above Allah!?"
The messenger of Allah informed this man
that he had lost all his good deeds
through saying such a thing.
through being a means of making one of Allah's servants
despair
in Allah's abundant and incessant Mercy.

Yet again we have another tradition,
that relates to Bani Israeel ( the children of Israel)
When a pious rahib (monk) had a brother
- Allah knows best if he was a blood brother or a brother in faith-
who was a sinner
One day the sinner had seen that his hair had turned grey,
he was no longer young, youthful and full of energy
and time was quickly passing him by
he decided to turn back to Allah.
He had felt very sorry for the many years he spent in disobedience to Allah
and he was now seeking
and desiring
the Mercy of Allah
He wanted to be in the presence of this rahib (monk) so that
perhaps! Part of Allah's Mercy that is descending upon him,
would descend upon him too...
So he went to the monk and sat with him,
and the monk had mocked him
He said,
"After 40 years of disobedience, how would Allah accept you?"
To which sayyiduna Musa informed this rahib upon hearing him say such a thing
That in that instance
he had lost all his good deeds
Because of these words he had uttered,
because he dared create despair in one of Allah's repenting servants
in the abundant incessant Mercy of Allah!
And he further informed them that, the sinner had all his sins forgiven!
Then sayyiduna Musa said
Allah said to both of you,
Now, you can both start from scratch.

During the time of the Messenger of Allah,
A rough Bedouin came to him in his mosque in Medina where he and his companions were
and behaved and spoke to him in an insolent manner
saying
"Give him from bayt al maal!
food that you have that doesn't belong
to you or
your mother or
your father!"
SayyidunaUmar was standing next to the messenger of Allah and they report that his eyes rolled with anger!
Thinking how dare he speak with such insolence in the presence of the Messenger of God
in his mosque like that!
To which Allah's Apostle had calmed sayyiduna Umar down
and the other companions who were also in a state of shock
then he took the Bedouin brother aside in his room
and gave him from bayt al maal and asked him
"Are you satisfied O brother?"
To which he replied "No".
So the Messenger of Allah gave him of his own personal food stores
which were sparse anyway
and he asked him again
"Are you happy O brother?"
To which the Bedouin replied
"Yes I am. Indeed! You are a generous man son of a generous man!"
As the Bedouin was leaving the mosque,
he saw the companions standing in their anger,
and he lifted his hands up and supplicated to Allah
"O Allah! Bestow your mercy upon me and Muhammad and no one else besides us!"
To which the Messenger said
"Ya akh al arab (O my Bedouin brother!),
why did you restrict that which is extremely expansive?
Rather say
“O Allah bestow Your Mercy upon me
and Muhammad
and everyone else”".

This is how Allah wants us to know him.

Were approaching Ramadan take note of this.
If people are sinning sometimes and performing good deeds other times,
do not make them despair in the Mercy of Allah,
or think their good deeds are pointless because they are sinning.
Perhaps it may be that Allah will bestow upon them His Favours
through that door of good deeds
and through it correct their sinning behaviour!

It has been related in prophetic tradition
that the companions said to the Messenger of Allah
"O Rasulullah! There is a man among us who prays with us by day
but at night he steals!"
To which the best of creation replied with
"That salah will eventually stop him from sinning"
and it was exactly as Rasullulah, peace be upon him, had said.
Allah says in the Quran:
"innal salata tanha 3anil munkar wal fahshaa2"
“Indeed the prayer restrains shameful and unjust deeds"

Allah showers every person in His Mercy constantly
Some will be affected and they will find their way to Allah
others will remain oblivious and not recognise the Mercies of Allah
But, regardless
He will continue to bestow it upon them.

Don't let anyone despair
Allah's Mercy is there for them until their soul reaches their throat
And they gargle as their soul leaves their body.
If a person at that point will turn towards Allah
He will forgive all the sins of the past
and that person will die with no sins upon them
at all.

Allah said to sayyiduna Dawood,
"Love me and make my creation love Me",
He said, "I can love you but how do I make Your creation love You?"
He said, "Mention My favours and My bounties upon them".

Abu Hurairah said,
"I know a man who will enter Jannah and he hasn't prayed a single rak3ah (unit of prayer) in his life!”
The other companions asked "how can that be? Who is he?" :/
He said "Al Usayrim".
With Usayrim, his entire tribe entered Islam
but he refused
During one of the battles between the Muslimeen and the Kuffar
he was out hunting while his tribe were fighting with the Messenger of Allah
And when he came back to his tribe,
He didn’t find a single member in the settlement
He asked around where they were
And they replied that they were on a campaign,
So he goes with his spear and arrows and he starts fighting with them.
They said stand aside Usayrim, this is serious, and your’ not a Muslim
Don’t interfere right now we have no time for this
He continued to fight with them and when he was wounded and on his death bed,
he said something had entered into my heart when I had returned and found you were all gone
and that's when the kalmia (testimony of faith) entered my heart.
Thats why he picked up his weapons and went to fight with his people.
He said shahada on his death bed,
And after, Rasulullah said, "Usayrim is a man of Jannah!"

Allah's Mercy is extremely vast!
And we need not look further than the story of Wahshey
to see truly
how beyond our imagination
it really is.
Within this story is a great lesson
about how much Allah relents to His servants,

In the Haddith Qudsi Allah says:
"I have created you for Jannah (Paradise)
and Jannah was created for you
and I have created Jahamnam (Hellfire)
and made it haram (forbidden) upon you"

The story of wahshey,
is a beautiful story
about how Allah constantly leaves His door of Rahma
open for people.
Wahshey killed the uncle of Rasulullah salallahualayhiwasalam
Sayyiduna (our master) Hamza
it pained him so much
that even till his death
he cried over him,
It may be hard for one to understand the connection
And why it was that Rasulullah loved Hamza so much
Their mothers were cousins
Their fathers were father and son
They were breast fed by the same nursing mother; Halima
They were childhood and household friends
The age gap between them was a few months (or up to 2 years?)
We have best friends, but this is a whole other level.

When our Master Hamza was killed in battle,
Rasulullah salallahualayhiwasalam performed salatul janaza over him
70 times.
Whenever they prayed janaza over one of the martyrs of Badr
Rasulullah included sayyiduna Hamza in that janaza
70 times
He was so greatly pained by his death,

Initially the Mesenger of Allah made Wahsheys blood halal for anyone who finds him
But later he lifted it and sent him a message asking him to enter the fold of Islam
Saying Islam, teslam- become Muslim and you will find peace
So Wahshey writes back saying, how can I enter into Islam when you say
Allah says: (a verse to the effect of)
Whoever does not worship anyone other than Allah and does not kill a soul unjustly except in the requirement of Justice and does not commit fornication they will find Allah most merciful and if they do, then they will face severe punishment doubled and they will remain in Hellfire abased.
He said I have done all three, why should I enter Islam when I am going to receive such a punishment?
So Rasulullah sallalahulayhiwasalam sent him another message to which Allah had revealed a response to Wahshey,
(that such a punsishment as stated above will fall upon people) Except those who repent and performed salatul Tawbah (prayer of forgiveness) and does good deeds thereafter.
So Wahshey responds, saying but there are three conditions here... Those who
1.       Repent
2.       Perform salatul tawbah
3.       Do good deeds thereafter
I may not be able to do all three, what if I'm only able to do one or two of them? That means I'm still not exempted from punishment. There is no certainty here, give me something else.
So Allah revealed:
“Inna Allah laa yaghfir man yushrik bihi wahyaghfir men duni dhalika liman yashaa.”
“Indeed Allah does not forgive those who take partners unto him, and He forgives besides that to whomever He Wishes”.
And so Wahshey again, said,
“to whomever He wishes! That may not be me!”
So again The Most-Merciful revealed in surat al Zumur the beautiful response:
“Qul ya 'ibaada aladhi asrafu ala anfushim, la taqnatu min rahmatillah, inna Allah yaghfir al dhunuba jami'an, inna huwal ghafooror Rahim”.
“Say O My slaves that have wronged themselves, do not despair from the Mercy of Allah, indeed Allah forgives all sins, indeed He is the Oft-Forgiving, The Merciful”.

When Wahshey received this, he said,
“As for this; then yes”.

Allah is addressing this aya to those who have transgressed and who have disobeyed Him.
Can you hear the Mercy of Allah in these words,
Ya 'ibaadi!
The i in the end of 'ibaadi means possession, that is, you are Mine!
Despite that they have transgressed, they are still Mine.
Who else do you turn to?
Who else do you return to?
Who do we come from and who are we going back to?
Recognise your beginning and end and it will tell you how to conduct yourself in between.

and even after Wahshey accepted and became Muslim
Rasulullah salallahualayhiwasalam accepted his Islam
He didnt outcast him or reject him
but told him not to appear in front of him.
because every time he would see him, he would remember the image of his beloved uncle.

In the haddith Qudsi Allah says:
“He created us for Him
and He created Jannah for us
and He created Jahannam
and He made it forbidden for us”.

 Allah will always send you a means to find your way back
And He will keep doing that for you
Until you meet Him
To have hope in Allah's Mercy, remain constantly at the Door of Allah
In hope
And the Generous who when you stand at His door,
He will open for you
And give you
 
Worship Allah out of gratitude,
Without His guidance where would you be tonight?
We are constantly immersed in the Mercy of Allah
Be overwhelmed with gratitude
That’s how He wants you to know Him
and He wants you to approach Him
So approach Him.


Friday, January 13, 2012

Intentions


O Allah, I have indeed oppressed my soul excessively and none can forgive sin except You, so forgive me a forgiveness from Yourself and have mercy upon me. Surely, You are The Most‐Forgiving, The Most‐Merciful.

There is no power or might except with Allah.

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

This is love

Worthy of being shared with all the Muslims of this Ummah.


This is love.


And so there are some who spend their whole lives seeking. Sometimes giving, sometimes taking. Sometimes chasing. But often, just waiting. They believe that love is a place that you get to: a destination at the end of a long road. And they can’t wait for that road to end at their destination. They are those hearts moved by the movement of hearts. Those hopeless romantics or seekers of sincere expression of true devotion. For them, the search is almost a lifelong obsession of sorts. But, this tragic ‘quest’ can have its costs—and its’ gifts.


The path of expectations and the ‘falling in love with love’ is a painful one, but it can bring its own lessons. Lessons about the nature of love, this world, people, and one’s own heart, can pave this often painful path. Most of all, this path can bring its own lessons about the Creator of love.

Those who take this route will often reach the knowledge that the human love they seek was not the destination. Some form of that human love, can be a gift. It can be a means. But the moment you make it the End, you will fall. And you will live your whole life with the wrong focus. You will become willing to sacrifice the Goal for the sake of the means. You will give your life to reaching a ‘destination’ of worldly perfection that does not exist.

And the one who runs after a mirage, never gets there; but keeps running. And so too will you keep running, and be willing to lose sleep, cry, bleed, and sacrifice precious parts of yourself—at times, even your own dignity. But you’ll never reach what you’re looking for in this life, because what you seek isn’t a worldly destination. The type of perfection you seek cannot be found in the material world. It can only be found in God.

That image of human love that you seek is an illusion in the desert of life. So if that is what you seek, you’ll keep chasing. But no matter how close you get to a mirage, you never touch it. You don’t own an image. You can’t hold a creation of your own mind.

Yet, you will give your whole life, still, to reaching this ‘place’. You do this because in the fairy tale, that’s where the story ends. It ends at the finding, the joining, the wedding. It is found at the oneness of two souls. And everyone around you will make you think that your path ends there: at the place where you meet your soul mate, your other half—at the point in the path where you get married. Then and only then, they tell you, will you ever finally be complete. This, of course, is a lie because completion cannot be found in anything other than God.

But the lesson you’ve been taught since the time you were little—from every story, every song, every movie, every ad, every well-meaning auntie—is that you aren’t complete otherwise. And if—God forbid—you are one of the ‘outcasts’ who haven’t gotten married, or have been divorced, you are considered deficient or incomplete in some way.

The lesson you’re taught is that the story ends at the wedding, and then that’s when Jennah (paradise) begins. That’s when you’ll be saved and completed and everything that was once broken will be fixed. The only problem is, that’s not where the story ends. That’s where it begins. That’s where the building starts: the building of a life, the building of your character, the building of sabr, patience, perseverance, and sacrifice. The building of selflessness. The building of love.

And the building of your path back to Him.

But if the person you marry becomes your ultimate focus in life, your struggle has just begun. Now your spouse will become your greatest test. Until you remove that person from the place in your heart that only God should be, it will keep hurting. Ironically, your spouse will become the tool for this painful extraction process, until you learn that there are places in the human heart made only by—and for—God.

Among the other lessons you may learn along this path—after a long road of loss, gain, failure, success, and so many mistakes—is that there are at least 2 types of love. There will be some people you love because of what you get from them: what they give you, the way they make you feel. This is perhaps the majority of love—which is also what makes much of love so unstable. A person’s capacity to give is inconstant and changing. Your response to what you are given is also inconstant and changing. So if you’re chasing a feeling, you’ll always be chasing. No feeling is ever constant. If love is dependent on this, it too becomes inconstant and changing. And just like everything in this world, the more you chase it, the more it will run away from you.

But, once in a while, people enter your life that you love—not for what they give you—but for what they are. The beauty you see in them is a reflection of the Creator, so you love them. Now suddenly it isn’t about what you’re getting, but rather what you can give. This is unselfish love. This second type of love is the most rare. And if it is based in, and not competing with, the love of God, it will also bring about the most joy. To love in any other way is to need, to be dependent, to have expectations—all the ingredients for misery and disappointment.

So for all those, who have spent their life seeking, know that purity of any thing is found at the Source. If it is love that you seek, seek it through God. Every other stream, not based in His love, poisons the one who drinks from it. And the drinker will continue to drink, until the poison all but kills him. He will continue to die more and more inside, until he stops and finds the pure Source of water.

Once you begin to see everything beautiful as only a reflection of God’s beauty, you will learn to love in the right way: for His sake. Everything and everyone you love with be for, through and because of Him. The foundation of such love is God. So what you hold onto will no longer be just an unstable feeling, a fleeting emotion. And what you chase will no longer be just a temporary high. What you hold, what you chase, what you love, will be God: the *only* thing stable and constant. Thereafter, everything else will be through Him. Everything you give or take or love or don’t love, will be by Him. Not by your nafs. It will be for Him. Not for your nafs.

This means you will love what He loves and not love what He does not love. And when you do love, you will give to the creation—not for what you can get in return from them. You will love and you will give, but you will be sufficed from Him. And the one who is sufficed by God, is the richest and most generous of all lovers. Your love will be by Him, for Him, and because of Him. That is the liberation of the self from servitude to any created thing. And that is freedom. That is happiness.

That is love.
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